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i was given a belly of rocks;
each stone asks, "plant me," so i do.
each spring blesses me with the same stony seeds,
and i thank the god of my childhood
for his faithfulness -
i continue to dig up what i've buried,

but i wonder,
what of the blood from labor-worn fingers
and the sweat
and the lust that i've spilled each season -
where is my return on that?

the god of my adulthood stays silently distant
while i groan along with the pebbles,
"use me?"
and i dig,

and i dig.
"use me,"
the rocks cry and i join them,
begging the dirt for kindness and the heavens
for answers the earth has swallowed and
yet to spit-up.
faithful and quietly distant
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i'm a zombie.

i was a girl, once... full of life and thoughts and i had low energy but at least i had SOME energy...

this is horrible... i don't want to do anything but sit. my hands shake, my arms shake, my legs constantly feel weak...

the worst part is the memory loss and confusion... i walk two feet and stare blankly at scenery trying to remember what i was going to do... i forgot how to spell tuesday.

people keep saying, "at least you have your boyfriend..." yes, i know i have him... i'm very grateful for the only person that's ever stuck around to see me through my ugly. i'm grateful for the only person that knows what i'm thinking and is willing to step outside of his box to compromise with me. this has nothing to do with him.... this has everything to do with me, trying to get healthy, and feeling like the task at hand is impossible.

am i too sick for meds?

i seriously hope not... but prozac, lithium, and trazodone make my life more difficult. at least i cried because of exhaustion instead of crying from wanting to kill myself... that's gotta be something, right?

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i'm a zombie.

i was a girl, once... full of life and thoughts and i had low energy but at least i had SOME energy...

this is horrible... i don't want to do anything but sit. my hands shake, my arms shake, my legs constantly feel weak...

the worst part is the memory loss and confusion... i walk two feet and stare blankly at scenery trying to remember what i was going to do... i forgot how to spell tuesday.

people keep saying, "at least you have your boyfriend..." yes, i know i have him... i'm very grateful for the only person that's ever stuck around to see me through my ugly. i'm grateful for the only person that knows what i'm thinking and is willing to step outside of his box to compromise with me. this has nothing to do with him.... this has everything to do with me, trying to get healthy, and feeling like the task at hand is impossible.

am i too sick for meds?

i seriously hope not... but prozac, lithium, and trazodone make my life more difficult. at least i cried because of exhaustion instead of crying from wanting to kill myself... that's gotta be something, right?

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Braxton-T-Rutledge Featured By Owner Sep 5, 2014
Just so you know, we miss reading
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happy birthday on may 25
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LadyLincoln Featured By Owner May 25, 2014  Hobbyist Writer
Happy birthday, sweetheart. I hope your day was beautiful :heart:
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Happy birthday, sweetie! Have a fantastic day. :heart:

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Nullibicity Featured By Owner May 25, 2014  Hobbyist Writer
I wanted to drop by to wish you a wonderful birthday, love! Thank you for inspiring me.

Maybe you weren't even aware that you did, but I remember a certain instance where I was at a really low point--in both my writing and my life. I read a piece from you, then, and perhaps I stumbled across it in a beautiful accident, but am a believer of reasons and fate. I felt a spark. My mind burst forth in the colors of possibility and creation. You inspired me to keep writing... to keep pushing for progress and improvement! When you commented on an extremely personal piece of mine, too, about my trauma, you were a beautiful catalyst for my life. You inspired me to keep improving myself... to make everything beautiful so I could move forward and keep shining. I never thanked you for that... but I suppose I wanted to share that today not only because it's the anniversary of such a lovely soul's entrance into this world, but because I wanted you to know that your words are power. Maybe if you ever start to doubt them (as seems a writer's fate unfortunately) you can recall that they are lions with teeth and roars that reach out far deeper than an internet or a page. They can affect lives, and I wanted to thank you for having an affect on mine. :rose:

So! On this lovely day, where you and your gorgeous soul first came forth, I wish you the best and the brightest future. May your days be filled with too much sunshine and love. May time be your friend, and may the sun rise only to see you smile and laugh and enjoy this life that is perfectly and entirely yours. You are always beautiful and deserving--don't forget it!

Happy birthday, dear lioness. Know you are loved and cherished by many! :heart:

Love,
Kelsi :hug:
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Happy birthday, dear! :huggle: :heart:
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Happy birthday and have a wonderful day!!!!! :heart:
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Happy birthday!! :tighthug: :heart: :iconrainbowcakeplz:
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:D thanx very much for your support :iconrainbowwaveplz1::iconrainbowwaveplz2::iconrainbowwaveplz3: 
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