my hell is white

the only summers ever known
locked inside my heart
frost bites at extremities
chilled air invades my chest
as i inhale;
the sharp sting crippling
and i pull my arms into my breast
fighting to keep you there

i memorize and recite
every line
every rhyme
stirring melodies your words danced
into the grooves of my brain-
it's my only escape;
whoever said hell is alight
was sadly mistaken-
i know the deep is really white
and it's trying to suffocate me

cinch up my dress;
put a little color
in this- forever
winter, wonder lost
and thieving
your breath,
land